I have been hurt and lied to,played by and broke by people.
People ask me "Why do you block your self from the world all the time?"
This is why,
I have been bullied since I was 6 from being different,
Every one picked on me because I was more shy and sensitive than the others,
I was in special classes from kindergarten threw 2nd grade.
Just because the way I talked,wrote,and thought,
Then when I was out of special classes the kids made fun of me,made fun of who I was and how I only had 3 friends.
2 of witch were boys. And the other was only my friend because I lived in a big house with a big yard.
She was the one who I kept forgiving over and over again,she always came back and hurt me,she always knew how to make me cry.
Then I had it,some thing snapped inside and I slapped her.As hard as I could to leave a mark,and I fell down and cried.
My mother called her father who made the girl grounded and got spanked.
Then a girl I looked and still do look up to in a way came,she was taller than me and a year older than me,but I thought she was nice to me.
I told her what sonic was,and some of my past,very little.
But then I went bad,I talked to my self and made up a little girl twin of me named maddilina,I made her up were I could only talk to her if I was alone and she was my reflection.
I forgot about her but she was apart of me then,that's were I had got my clingy Ness from,HER.My mind made me think she talked back and told me stories and told me to never let any one go.
But then every thing got happy again,till like 2 years.
Then me and that close person had got our selfs in trouble,not telling how.
But she gave me the cold shoulder even when we were loud to talk again,but then she tried,I had thought she would ignore me and leave me like others but then she talked to me again,she even left me a note in my note book.
It was 2 days after my birthday she talked to me though.
Then later on we got in trouble again,but we then fixed it in a way.
But then this time we got in trouble ,but we talked still.
My mom knew,she didn't mind though.
But then all suddenly she ignored me for 4 days and I was confused,all I did was warn her of what was about to happen.
So I wanted to fix it so badly I messaged her a lot.
She showed her mother and said stuff,that hurt me really badly.
It made me hate my self,made me hate what I chose to be.
I chose to let a neither person in my life who I didn't even know if she hurt me or not,but to the fact she told all me secrets to her mom,and that I had to lie and not tell my mom hers,just hurt so much.
It still hurts a lot.
And to the fact I showed my mom what she sent me saying I was being a cry baby and not to embarrass her in front of her friends and the past stuff she told me,and said about me,my mom said she wasn't being a best friend.
But yet I won't listen,I won't listen to any one who's been saying it to.
I don't want to hear nothing any more,I wanted/want to go into my old little world were I would just sleep and try to remember every thing I lost in the past.
Well I better stop there.Or I will tell to much information about my self.